A Poem

(I may come up with a name for this...it's not really a poem...well it doesn't rhyme)

This is the day we waited for
This is what we always wanted
You said it'd be perfect
That time would stop at this moment
It didn't and nothing changed
We kept going
Now where are we?
Life isn't a picnic
I wasn't expecting that,
But this isn't what I wanted
I wanted you, I wanted to be wanted
Everything changed
It always does, doesn't it?
You made this happen
Yet you refuse to be happy
So where are we?
What mess do you insist making?
Couldn't you have found a better way?
No you couldn't,
Nothing will ever be the same again
I can't trust you alone anymore
It doesn't matter how many times
You say "I won't do it again"
How can I trust that?
How can I believe you?
Your words "You weren't suppose to be here."
That cut deep
That made my heart bleed
This wasn't the first time
Someone close to me tried to do that
At least last time I had no warning
At least last time it was just over
This time you cursed me
I'll never look at you the same way
I'll cry at the mention of it
You joke
It's not funny.

(This is not entirely what I want to say, but the thing is I can't get my mind off of what has happened this week. I don't particularly feel like talking about it so don't bother asking what happened, if you can't infer what it is it's probably better that way (and no my partner didn't cheat on me) There may be allusions to what happened this week through the rest of my writing forever because this week has been very traumatic. I couldn't stand being home alone yesterday even.)

Rant about Two lane freeways

I just recently made a long trip. I decided some time ago that two lane freeways were annoying and this trip just reaffirmed that sentiment for me.

Here is the thing some people drive 75mph, that's awesome! I'm one of those people. The annoying thing is, 75mph is too fast for the slow lane, and apparently too slow for the passing lane which is what the left lane is for. Not constant driving on that side. You drive in the right lane until you get close (not tailgating) to the car in front of you, then you pass on the left side. It is supposed to be as easy as that. Unfortunately we live in a day and age where it doesn't matter what time of day you take the freeway there are a lot of cars on the road so it is ridiculous to drive that way. It just doesn't work anymore. Two lane freeways are outdated. I can go on but I've made my point. I don't have a plan to fix this (at least not yet), but I do care that don't freeways like this cause more problems and accidents?

Because people don't get the concept of pulling into the lane next to you when you can and not at the last possible second. That's one of the reasons for all the traffic problems in construction zones. I know that is because once I was going through a construction zone and this big rig driver pulled into both lanes, he just drove there. About a minute after he did that the traffic picked up and we made it past the construction in less than half the time it would have taken us.

Also people who cut off other people, you are jerks. Not just to the person you cut off but everyone who comes after him for over an hour. Heres the deal, I get cut off, I hit my brakes so as not to have an accident. The person behind me hits their brakes, the person behind them hits there brakes and so on and so on and so on and so on. Eventually it breaks up, but it takes forever for it to do just that. The person who cut me off just caused traffic problems for the next hour or more, thank you very much! You ever get that random slow down that makes no sense whatsoever and then you get past it and there wasn't ANYTHING going on where you finally get moving again. Yeah that's why, someone had to hit their brakes.
Ok I'm done ranting now.

Response

Wind swept and dragged across the ages. Time had worn her thin. Her once sturdy walls crumbled. He held her in his arms as she finally let what she held in out, and what she refused entry in. Tears fell down his face and mingled with hers. She trembled with fear and acceptance. Too long had she let the past hold her down now she wanted freedom, the redemption that he led her too.

This is a response to "A Once Feral Child" By Ducroisel Meche. https://www.triond.com/users/ducroisjosef

Annoyed

I just want to say this. Science you have some of it wrong. Christianity you have some of it wrong. Other religions you have some of it wrong. I don't care how old or how much you've worked on all of your ideas some of it is wrong. There is nothing you can do about it. We as humans are fallible some of what we bs ourselves with will be wrong there is no way around it, get over it. You are not 100% right ever, there is no such thing (except on tests for whatever reason, and even those may be rare). Listen I don't care what you believe, or what your facts say. Facts can be wrong. The earth is not the center of the universe, and neither is your daughter (even if she believes it) Beliefs can be wrong, the should be mailable just for that same reason. Unfortunately people don't let their beliefs change. They get stuck in a rut of rituals. Beliefs are outdated, beliefs were for the cavemen who had entirely too much time on their hands. Ideas are a completely different thing. Please I beg you, be reasonable for once in your life and see that what you believe is not the only thing out there that makes sense. Take a real good long look at all of the other possibilities!

Budget cuts

Thursday in class we ended up discussing the budget crises, which isn’t that surprising. You’d understand if you are in college. At one point an individual says, after a comment about how many teachers were fired, “But no staff were fired?” the teacher replies yes to this because well that is true. The student then says rather cynically “typical” I wanted to at this point stand up and start laying in on him. What this student and most other ones don’t know is that since 1995 there hasn’t been a single faculty lay off, but dozens of staff lay offs each semester.

Sorry this on is short...it has been a busy first week of school. If you have any comments about the budget cuts in general contact your local Representative or the governor himself (governor@governor.ca.gov) also (916)445-2841. Schwarzengger is willing to hear your points. Don't comment to me if you have complaints, only comment to me if you have something to say about this post itself.

Brave New Begining

Anyone read the book Brave New World(If not beware I have spoilers in this blog)? A friend of mine told me when she read it it ended without the suicide of the guy. I had read it with the suicide and was wholly depressed. Which ending did you read it with and do you think it was better that way?

This was a lead in into my second blog post ever. Yes I just started the blog as of about half an hour ago, but I wanted to discus the book for some reason. So when you read this and discover this post give me a message about what you think of the book...and here I go.

I'm a fan of books always have been since I can remember. My parents actually got annoyed with reading to me so my dad taught me DOS when I was three so I could run the read to me books that came out then. I couldn't run DOS now though, it would be a random skill to have that is for sure. Anyway, this summer two books that I have read have come into the movie theaters and a third is coming soon. The first "My Sister's Keeper" the second "The Time Traveler's Wife" and coming soon "The Road". I had had high hopes for "My Sister's Keeper" it was an utter disappointment. I don't even know how the author could let that make it to post production let alone the big screen. So after following that disaster was "The Time Traveler's Wife" as a movie it might not make much sense (I read a few reviews to prepare myself for the movie and one person said that they were confused) as a book though it was brilliant piece of literature. Well I had just had the disappointment of "My Sister's Keeper" I was terrified that this one would be worried. I was pleasantly surprised with it though. It was as true to the book as any movie could be. Of course now I have "The Road" to worry about. I've seen some good names in the cast, but that doesn't mean much look at the cast for "My Sister's Keeper" there are quite a few large names in that movie, yet it was a blatant destruction of the book.

"The Road" is dark, very dark, be prepared to be thankful for everything after reading it or seeing it. I was practically giddy with happiness as I drank some soda after reading "The Road" I want that same sensation when it comes to the movie. It is a graphic book in a post apocalyptic world. Here's keeping my hopes up!

Congrats to finding me

You have found me The Normal FemGeek. Here in my first Blog ever I shall tell you a little about me. If you want to know more you are S.O.L. I am your average female geek. I have a life outside of what shall be said when I post here. I am 21 years old, I am going to college in California. I have a few opinions about some things, mostly I don't really care. If I have one though you will know my stance on it. I haven't always been a geek, this is a recent development. I had no brothers growing up so I don't know all of the old school stuff, but I have been picking it up as of late. My friends are really good for that. If you are one of my friends and have found me miraculously I hope you don't realize it is me. Here is the point of this blog: I want to point out some things to you guys out there who think you have to attach yourselves to the females that understand you random references, I also want to talk about things I come across in my life that catch my eye when it comes to stuff in the geek world. There are probably a few more points to this blog that I haven't figured out yet. I'll rant sometimes just to get somethings off my chest. Please feel free to respond to anything you have an opinion on, I will if I have time take your opinion into account and you may even get me to change my mind on something. If you want to link me something...don't I will get hundreds of those if I say do. So pass on my blog to some friends if you find this interesting. If you want to that is. Stick around and enjoy, you may read something funny. So here it is the beginning of The Normal FemGeek's blog.